someone...

i want a guy,
who ever he may be...
i want to have him,
to hold him...

but i don't understand...
no matter how much i want this guy,
i can never accept anyone to fill in his annonymous shoes...
i've had candidates...
why is it that i can't accept anyone??
i being so picky, it's becoming annoying.


i sat there with his hands in mine,
i felt safe and happy.
but i did not and will not accept his offer,
i won't let him pass that friendship line...
why??

i just don't understand why i can't be satisfyed with anyone...
it seems so hopeless...should i give up??
i'll leave my feelings to myself...


i sleep so i can have my perfect guy,
because i know i have no choice but to let him go after i wake up,
and i have no strings attached,
he will never disappoint me, never be unsatisfying,
he is perfect, but sadly annonymous...