time to let go

it came so sudden and doesn't always seem true
but it has been decided and theres nothing i can do.

my heart is still attached but my mind knows what needs to be done.
but how am i to go about not following my heart?

the decision wasn't wrong,
it was a necessary sacrifice that had to be made,
but it was more severe then i had braced myself for.

how do you let go of each other when you know it's not because of the lack of love?
how do you accept a decision to let go of your heart?
how can a year and five months just disappear like it was all just a phase in life?

it wasn't a phase for me.
i gave it all i had.
i invested myself into it and had faith in it.
and in one day, it all just went away like it was all just a dream.

just a dream

it was a dream i didn't want to wake up from,
a dream that i lived for.

yes, the priority was more important,
but my heart has just as muc importance to me.

it feels impossible to just simply let go.
there is nothing to hate or dispise against.
there is only lonelyness and a void in my life now that it's been taken away from me.

how do i live with this?
how do i heal from this?

he was my everything,
he was my motivation in every moment of my day
he was my life,
and now he's gone. just simply gone.

my heart doesn't know how to cope with it so it tries to shield it's self from reality
i've never heard this kind of ending from anyone before...
or mayb i have but it's just so much differnt when it's me in those shoes.

i'm so lost right now.
i feels like a severe cut.
when the injury is so bad that your body sends out signals to numb the pain
i know the cut is there, but the full pain and reality hasnt sunkin in yet.

save me, don't leave me.
i will make all the sacrifices i need to,
just not the sacrifice of you.